am scared.
went to bed with heavy eyelids, and a bout of heartache just hit me, and reduced me to tears. cant sleep at all now.
i feel like screaming my lungs out, throwing everything on e ground, and basically have a fit of madness. yet all i can do now is curl up in a corner of my room and cry my eyes out.
i desperately do not want anything to happen, but e possiblity of it kept creeping up to me. and i can do nothing to fight off e heartache.
i just cry. hoping e tears will blur out everything around me so i can be oblivious. then maybe i can convince myself it's nothing but a trick of my mind.
just a trick of my mind.
